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My thought had been sugar coated and full of possibility, padahal kenyataannya ‘tanpa harapan’.

Yesterday (25/8) was mylast day work in that office. Jam makan siang Director ngajak Pres Dir makan diluar (sekretaris ikut), tiba2 IT, Exim, Purchase ngikut juga. Kami ber8 makan di Dewi Air (nama Restoran), aku tanya bosku harini agenda makan siang barengnya krn ada perayaan apaan? dia jawab its the Director’s who’s got the idea. Hmm, I know that the Director knows its my last day working there =(. I said thank you for the lunch and he was just nodded. But I just didnt prepare that the lunch will gonna be our last lunch together. So here’s the end of the journey working there. But the lunch went good, It was like the world ending and beginning and will be end again. I requested Banana Split for dessert and its super delicious.

Pas sorenya gue pamitan ma Mr. Pres Dir, he was like.. “What?! there will be no Miss Yiin by tomorrow?”. He told the HRD that he should let him know earlier that its my last days. But the HRD only apologize and tell me that it have to be ME who tell myboss its my last day working there. What?! Well, who told me to wait for THE RESULT until 25 August? I look at HRD in anger coz it means I might not got the gift from this President Director, he’ll prepare things gift or something if he know that its my last days. But I didnt say anything, coz when you hate..you dont beg or blame. So there was nothing to say anyhow.

My another favorite boss: Mr. General Manager, he’s so kind gave those biscuits, green tea and lolly pop candy and those pens too from Korea (its only biscuits and 0.4 mm gel ink pens), I like biscuits and pens. Well, aku ngga benar2 suka ama biskuit dan pulpen warna-warni tapi tau kan? Itu bentuk perhatian. I wish i didnt dramatise the situation but he is that special, my good looking Mr.Lee. Have I told you lately about in my dream when he kissed me once? I will start to forget him now *feel like crying mode on*.

Mungkin aku yg salah.. Im stupid and yea, I cant work in team (ya ampun, ini rasanya spt sedang patahati, you know girl’s feeling who blame herself from broken relationship? well thats what I feel atm). So, I wish its because the last 2 months I wear long skirt and more looks like Kindergarden Teacher instead of Secretary. *Self denial is starting mode on*. Eh.. Indri nyeletuk bilang mungkin krn jalan gue gejed kalo pake rok panjang dan ini mempengaruhi kinerja gue selain krn bahasa formal gue yg membuat gue ga bisa gabung/ngobrol asik dan becanda ma staf yg cw. You know in the last week I always disappointing them. Tapi alasan yg satu ini nih adalah alasan yg bagus

mKT: “…bla bla bla..terlalu lambat, maksudnya orang Bandung, yg sempet kuliah dan kerja disana, beda dg orang Jakarta. Cara jalannya…cara kerjanya.. Orang Bandung, cara jalannya aja lambat. Mereka beda, jalan pelan-pelan! Di bandingkan dg org Jakarta, mereka jalannya selalu cepet-cepet, jadi kerjanya cepet juga.. Kamu…kamu lambat, in”
sEC: Dalam hati : terima kasih Indri…
mKT: “Well, kamu ngerti kan maksudku?”
sEC: Dalam hati: maybe its not the skirt, lets blame it to high heels =) muka bego mode on dan nyeletuk “High heels?”
mKT: “Tepat!”
sEC “Huwahahahaha”

Coz im good on laughing at myself =D so I laughed. Aku bertekad akan pake sepatu yg bagus dan rok panjang selamanya, I look good on that.

Well, I’ve just made a list. But knowing me, i always wrote post “in the red light of emotion” and not in “the white light of truth”. I dont want you guys to take it seriously or something..I Publish it in my tumblr account, trust me it would really really really would scare you if you know that was whats going on on my brain. You can feel the anger on those lines (be careful, hatred does catching, maxudnya: hati2 menular =P) but the reasons are so true and healthy for my emotional feeling. Well, Im sorry for make myself feel better, then.

Moral of the post: Everybody need a chance but somebody else was always controlling who got a chance and who didnt. Just like relationship, I learned that things cant be always easy for working girl eh, lover girl. Kita bisa selalu anggap things are just fine between you and the boss boy, but staff and other employee family’s DOES matter. We have to always count them in. What if they think that the secretary sister/daughter-in-law wannabe is too stingy or stupid or not good enough for the boss boy? There will be no marriage after all (It could happen).

Sekarang aku akan bener2 kerjain hal2 yg selama ini ga bisa aku lakuin dan yah, hafalin Al Ghasyiyah (krn aku bertekad hafalin itu sejak 1 Juli) dan kumpul keluarga & teman2 dan yah sekaranglah saatnya aku punya wkt luang..

Well, thats about it and I feel so much better now, so aku mungkin ga akan bahas ini lagi.